Plan of the week.

Wow, so like Friday I have a meltdown, yesterday I chilled out, and today I have done nothing productive. Tomorrow that has to change. I am the only person who can make that change but I have been lavishing in myself pitty and boredom and have melt downs because it is coming close to the end of the month and I have no way of pay more than half my bills. I know everything will be okay it us just a little scary to think about sometimes. I can hold off my electric bill but my car insurance has to get paid no matter what. I am going to call Suntrust to figure something out with my car payment see if I can get an extension.
Hopefully I get a job soon. I do have an interview on Monday for CVS. it's not great and it will probably be minimum wage but at least it is a job. I will have money coming in. I hope my schedule is good too if I get it because the store that I applied for is kind of out of the way from everything else so hopefully I wont be making the drive to just spend my paycheck on gas.
If anything I know I can get a seasonal job coming up which will only be like 4 to 10 hours a week and it will only be for a few months. Arg, this sucks. I hate not having a job partly because I hate not having something to do all day. I need to get my but in gear though. There are a lot of things I could be doing like cleaning my apartment instead of sitting on my ass at my boyfriends all day and doing nothing there while he plays WOW. I f*cking hate WOW. So tomorrow it begins, The Transformation. Starting tomorrow I am done smoking, I am going to get my apartment cleaned and go through everything I have and get rid of all that is not necessary, i'm going to start working out (I've gained 5lbs since not having a job), I'm going to get over my pride bull crap and look for a job closer to home and actually finish that application. I really need to get myself together.
So thus the plan begins. Time to set my goals for the week of Sept 26, 2010.
Sunday: Breakfast with Grandma and family at 9.
Clean out kitchen (cabnets/fridge)
Clean out bedroom (closet/dresser/draws full of crap)
Workout for 1hour.
DO NOT HAVE A CIGARETTE
Do my eyebrows (they are looking ruff)

Monday: Job Interview at 9am at CVS
Lay by the pool, (the new me is tan)
Workout for 1 hour.
Drop off box of books at Library.
DO NOT HAVE A CIAGRETTE
Tuesday: Workout for 1 hour in the morning.
Take bags of clothes to Loes for the Goodwill truck.
Get rid of every last piece of cardboard in my apartment. (really Ive been since there February I should have all that shit already.
Go around to restaurants around home to look for a job. (Finish applications)
DO NOT HAVE A CIGARETTE
Wednesday: Workout for 1hour
Layout in the sun.
Clean out hall closet.
Clean patio closet.
DO NOT SMOKE A CIGARETTE
Thursday: Workout for 1hour.
Return Applications to all Restaurants.
Re arrange room.
Clean bathroom.
Friday: Workout for 1hour.
Layout in the sun.
Clean out car/vacuum/wash
DO NOT HAVE A CIGARETTE
Saturday: Workout for 1 hour
Come up with to do list for the week of August 3rd, 2010 since my acct will officially be overdrawn.
DO NOT HAVE A CIGARETTE!

Amburet

P.S. After asking myself out loud what song best goes with this blog entry and hitting random on Itunes; the song of the moment is We Will Rock You~Queen

PPS I realize that the last post says pretty much the same thing as this one but I am in a better state of mind. I am not longer feeling sorry for myself now I am just pissed that I have waisted so much time.

Here it is. This weeks schedule.

Wow, two post in one day, in less than ten minutes. I must be bored. Okay so here on out pitty party is over, no more feeling sorry for myself. There are people out there who have it worse off than so I need to get off my lazy ass and do something about it.
Today I go to Target with the Babe and I will apply for a job there. It's not a great a job but it is a job and I need one.
Later I will go online and update my application for HCC (Hillsborough Community College) What I want to do with my life I have no idea but what better way to find out then go back to school.
Tomorrow I recover from tonight while cleaning my apartment and getting that pig sty livable and happy feeling. A happy/clean home makes for a happy Amber. Plus I also have to give the cats their flee baths.
Saturday online applications for jobs and Sunday recover from Saturday night and Chantel's birthday party!
Starting Monday, the job hunt for any job will begin. The malls the stores and the shops.
Tuesday head down to HCC to speak with an advisor about changing my major to a regular AA degree.
Wednesday I'm going to the beach. I live in Florida tourist season almost over its time to head out and get some sun.
These are my plans for next week and next Thursday we make new plans for the week. I'm a women on a mission and I am going to accomplish everything I want. Yes ma'am. Let's get this party started.

Spout of sleepy.

Still not job hunting, I guess I need to get on that if I want to find a job. No one is just going to give me one. I need to find something I want to do though and I have no idea what I want to do. I would like to work in a company and a job that I could be happy with so hopefully I can find that soon. Of course once again I have no collage education witch could impact me getting a job that I could be successful in. Wow, I am trying not to be negative but it just comes out sometimes. Well tonight I am going dancing and Saturday is USF vs UF then Saturday night we celebrate the 21st anniversary of the birth of my dear friend Chantel Martin.

Lucky hunting to all my fellow unemployed peeps.

~Amber

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How do I go about getting followers and following people? I would like more people to talk to and have read my blog. Not like I have anything to say but still. I would like people to read what I have to write/say.

Pitty Party

Okay so I have officially been out of the job for four days. It really sucks, I don't know what I am going to do. I have no money coming in and I have no idea what I am going to do. I gave my brother 140.00 towards the rent when all he needed was 125.00. I asked him for the 15.00 back and he said he didn't know how much was in his acct. I am never going to see that 15.00 again. I still have one more half a paycheck coming in and I still have to file for unemployment see if I can get anything until I can find a new job.
I have been looking online at different jobs for different companies. Of course I have no collage education and the only experience I have is five years at McDonalds and 2 and half months at Suncoast. I don't want to work in a call center again. I don't like being yelled at especially for things that are not my fault. You messed up your acct you are the only person you should be mad at. It's not my fault you don't know how to read a statement. IF YOU HAVE THE INFORMATION ON THE STATEMENT IN FRONT OF YOU WHY ARE YOU HAVEING ME LOOK UP THE STATEMENT TO TELL YOU THE TOTAL WHEN YOU JUST TOLD IT TO ME!. <<< that guy was an asshole.
Arg, I'm freaking the hell out right now and I feel like I am losing control over my life. I know my family will help me but I don't want their help. I feel like I should be able to do it on my own. I want to find a job anywhere just so I have a paycheck coming in and I can say that I am at least trying to pay my bills on my own. roughly speaking I would need to make 1000.00 a month to get the little bills I do need to get paid, paid and be able to eat and put money in savings. I don't know what I am going to do. I want to go back to school but I have no idea what I want to study or what classes I want to take. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up.

Thats funny because I was talking about how at twenty-two I feel that I should not have to rely on people to help me with bills but I don't feel like I am grown up yet. I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I really want to move out of Tampa, but my entire family is here. Scotty is here and I don't think he would want to move. Oh goodness. This can't be good. It's my turn for the pitty party. Don't get me wrong I understand that I am more fortunate than others but still I am entitled to a pitty party every once in a while. I am aloud to feel sorry for myself for a few days while I work stuff out in my head. God I have one more half a paycheck coming in from my last job and that will be a few hundred which will all go towards bills for September and October. Not even fully October. Oh my god what if I can't find anything. I mean I know I will but what if I can't I would have a complete melt down and not know what to do, I don't know what to do now. I would have to move in with my family and sell my car. Good lord I hate them for firing me. Bitches!
Okay, well I need to finish this pitty party doing something other than writing, like packing and getting ready to leave.

Yours Truly
Amburnet
The self pittying, out of work, thrower of objects.