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Saturday, December 18, 2010
The Newest Plan.
I have a plan. I know I have said that before and this probably won't be the last time I say it. I am going to get a second job. Hopefully an overnight gig and do nothing but work till next fall semester then I am going o start anew with this college thing. Hey caught up on all my bills and maybe further then need be with some of them. I need to focus on me and get my shit together in hopes of being successfull and happy and that means I have bust my ass now while I'm young and can still bounce back. This is the plan. Time to put plan in motion.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
My Election and Politics Rant.
I tried to make a joke about Obama, of course I didn't get a chance to because my grandmother cut me off talking about how no one wanted the health care reform thing he is doing things that no one really wants and blah blah blah blah blah. While she was going on about I then did the unthinkable and I cut her off. Then I went on my own little blah blah blah blah blah rant about how I DON'T CARE. I explained probably a little more harsh then needed that I know nothing about the health care reform thing because I don't give a damn about the health care reform thing. I don't give a damn about who is in office. I DON'T CARE.
I didn't vote in the midterm election because I don't give a shit who is running for what. I know some people are going to think that it is wrong that I don't care but I have tried to care really I have. I have tried to read articuls and keep up to date with polls and plans and what not but I just can't make myself follow it. Maybe I am not educated enough to care. Maybe I am unAmarican. I don't know I don't care. I've given up on trying to make sence of something that make no sence to me. My grandmother told me that I didn't have a right to have an opinion and I know that because I didn't vote. A lot of other people will believe that too, but, guess what. I am still going to give my opinion whether these people like it or not because I don't really care what these people have to say/think about me not voting. They don't have to read this and they don't have to listen to me give my opinion. I sure as hell don't care about theirs. I don't even know what any of the amendments were about so it would have been pointless to vote for any of those.
I hate election time because all it is are stupid phone calls that I don't think any living breathing person actually listens too comercials with politicians talking trash about each and showing off their ugly babies. (Really I know your they are you kids but someone should have told you that they are ugly and don't belong on the television.) People have no idea how thirlled I am that today is the first day of two years (year and half) of not haveing to deal with any of this election bullshit any more. But of course in two years it is the big boy election. The Ultimate "Immm Better then youuuu nananana booboo." pissing match. Cause in all honesty isn't that what the election really is, a bunch of adult looking kids in thousand dollar suits making fun of each other just using television and annoying phone calls to do it?
What annoys me even more then actual election are the people who get so into it all i hear from them is, "Oh this person is going to this and that person is going to this." "I am going to vote for this person because they said they are going to do this and I am not going to vote for this person because they said they are going to do that," Oh my freaking goodness! Really? We can not to mention the sign holding people; I want to hit them with my car. Like go away stop holding that damn sign because they only thing you are doing is putting yourself an your children in danger by standing on the side of the road during rush hour traffic in 90 degree weather. Why are you so stupid?!
I know that this comes off as I don't care about anything I have probably said that a time or two as well. In all honesty that is not true. More then anything I was just annoyed when starting this. I just can't get into it. Yeah I didn't vote because I didn't think anyone running was worth voting for. I didn't like any of them so why would I support one going into office over the other. I don't know anything about the amendments so why would I vote for something I know nothing about. In two years I will be to vote for who will lead this country but for now we are stuck with the guy who is there now and that is not a dislike or like comment because I keep my opinion about him to myself. So yeah. Here it is my true feelings and yes I'm telling you how I really feel.
Amber.
I didn't vote in the midterm election because I don't give a shit who is running for what. I know some people are going to think that it is wrong that I don't care but I have tried to care really I have. I have tried to read articuls and keep up to date with polls and plans and what not but I just can't make myself follow it. Maybe I am not educated enough to care. Maybe I am unAmarican. I don't know I don't care. I've given up on trying to make sence of something that make no sence to me. My grandmother told me that I didn't have a right to have an opinion and I know that because I didn't vote. A lot of other people will believe that too, but, guess what. I am still going to give my opinion whether these people like it or not because I don't really care what these people have to say/think about me not voting. They don't have to read this and they don't have to listen to me give my opinion. I sure as hell don't care about theirs. I don't even know what any of the amendments were about so it would have been pointless to vote for any of those.
I hate election time because all it is are stupid phone calls that I don't think any living breathing person actually listens too comercials with politicians talking trash about each and showing off their ugly babies. (Really I know your they are you kids but someone should have told you that they are ugly and don't belong on the television.) People have no idea how thirlled I am that today is the first day of two years (year and half) of not haveing to deal with any of this election bullshit any more. But of course in two years it is the big boy election. The Ultimate "Immm Better then youuuu nananana booboo." pissing match. Cause in all honesty isn't that what the election really is, a bunch of adult looking kids in thousand dollar suits making fun of each other just using television and annoying phone calls to do it?
What annoys me even more then actual election are the people who get so into it all i hear from them is, "Oh this person is going to this and that person is going to this." "I am going to vote for this person because they said they are going to do this and I am not going to vote for this person because they said they are going to do that," Oh my freaking goodness! Really? We can not to mention the sign holding people; I want to hit them with my car. Like go away stop holding that damn sign because they only thing you are doing is putting yourself an your children in danger by standing on the side of the road during rush hour traffic in 90 degree weather. Why are you so stupid?!
I know that this comes off as I don't care about anything I have probably said that a time or two as well. In all honesty that is not true. More then anything I was just annoyed when starting this. I just can't get into it. Yeah I didn't vote because I didn't think anyone running was worth voting for. I didn't like any of them so why would I support one going into office over the other. I don't know anything about the amendments so why would I vote for something I know nothing about. In two years I will be to vote for who will lead this country but for now we are stuck with the guy who is there now and that is not a dislike or like comment because I keep my opinion about him to myself. So yeah. Here it is my true feelings and yes I'm telling you how I really feel.
Amber.
Am I Not Human
I can watch all those commercials about children in other countries starving and not haveing shelter and not feel anything other than "Oh that sucks." But I bawl like a baby and want to give all the money I have or I can muster and send it to The Humane Society. Mmmm how can a person hurt an innocent animal they can't defend themselves. :( I hate people sometimes.
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Monday, November 1, 2010
Amburnet Writes Here.: The Result of an Addictive Personality.
Amburnet Writes Here.: The Result of an Addictive Personality.: " I have cried a lot the past few weeks from not knowing what I am going to do about not having a job and not being able to pay my bill..."
The Result of an Addictive Personality.
I have cried a lot the past few weeks from not knowing what I am going to do about not having a job and not being able to pay my bills to not knowing where I am going to end up with the people in my life. I know my family has my back and they are not going to let me fail; I just wish I didn't need their help. I like being independent and on my own. I can't pay my car payment or my electric bill or anythis else because I can't seem to get back on my feet and out of this hole I have fallen into. Of course seeing me on a daily basis you wouldn't know it because I think I do pretty well with keeping a smile on my face and being happy and strong for everyone but the truth is all I want to do is throw up and cry myself to the bottem of a liquor bottle.
You see in my family we all have very addicting personalities. We have to be strong not to get sucked into something that we have seen other members of our family get out of. In my family once you make that decision to travel your way to the bottem of that bottle there is nothing else to do after but throw that bottle away and grab the next one. At this moment I wish more then anything I can who have a drink right now at 1:44pm and just go home and watch tv and sleep but I know the only thing that will come of that is me being even more depressed and crying a lot more then I already do. So what do I do everyday? I get up take a shower, have breakfast, put on makeup and clothes and I leave the house to do nothing. That seems to be the only way from falling even further. Yessir, it's what has to be done. I have to make myself do something that is going to keep my mind off everything. My next stop for this mission to keep me smiling is to head to the library so off I go to make my world a little less depressing.
Or in the words of my mother. I am building my bridge and getting over it.
You see in my family we all have very addicting personalities. We have to be strong not to get sucked into something that we have seen other members of our family get out of. In my family once you make that decision to travel your way to the bottem of that bottle there is nothing else to do after but throw that bottle away and grab the next one. At this moment I wish more then anything I can who have a drink right now at 1:44pm and just go home and watch tv and sleep but I know the only thing that will come of that is me being even more depressed and crying a lot more then I already do. So what do I do everyday? I get up take a shower, have breakfast, put on makeup and clothes and I leave the house to do nothing. That seems to be the only way from falling even further. Yessir, it's what has to be done. I have to make myself do something that is going to keep my mind off everything. My next stop for this mission to keep me smiling is to head to the library so off I go to make my world a little less depressing.
Or in the words of my mother. I am building my bridge and getting over it.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
My millions of Dollar List.
So it has been a few weeks. I guess I have a lot more to write about. Not really. I pretty much just sit around all day waiting for a phone call about a job but I guess since I haven't heard anything yet I need to start filling out more apps. I going crazy. Like major throw things that piss me off have a panic attack crazy. I looked at my bank accts yesterday and holy shit. I have no money. Maybe I should start playing scratch offs to try and win some money here and there. Start playing the lottery. I might have to try that one day. If I win big I'll let ya'll know. Hmmm The things I could do with a few million dollars. Like....
I would go to school full time. I would still work just so I could keep an income still coming in. I wouldn't just spend all the money and not have a job. But school would be my number 1 priority till I am have finished and am in my career.
I would pay off everything. My car, medical bills, make it so I have no debt what so ever.
I would help out my family with whatever they needed.
I would probably buy a house. Not like a mansion just a small house that I could afford on a regular income. I don't need anything big.
Of course I would have to furnish this house. IKEA COUCH HERE I COME. (I really want that couch).
Then I would pretty much try and save everything else. I don't want to just spend it all. I need to save for a rainy day in case of emergencies type situations.
This is my million dollars list. It would be awesome If this all came true one day. Guess that means that I just have to start playing the lotto. Pink flamingo Baby.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
American League East Champions!!! TAMPA BAY RAYS...
I don't have much to say this week except I want to send a BIG THANK YOU to the Boston RedSox for that amazing game today against the New York Yankees, which they kicked so major Yankee ass and made my beloved TAMPA BAY RAYS American League East CHAMPS!
Not to mention of course the Rays bringing it back in the 12th inning and just rubbing the icing all over the cake and beating the Royals 3 to 2. Amazing Games for an amazing team. Next stop, Rangers at Rays starting the post season this Wednesday. Crazy excited!
We are going all the way this year ya'll. BRING IT HOME GUYS! You deserve it.
Peace and love to everyone
Amburnet
P.S. Hockey season starts next week ya'll! Oh god I love this time of year. Lightning Home Opener October 9th.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Plan of the week.
Wow, so like Friday I have a meltdown, yesterday I chilled out, and today I have done nothing productive. Tomorrow that has to change. I am the only person who can make that change but I have been lavishing in myself pitty and boredom and have melt downs because it is coming close to the end of the month and I have no way of pay more than half my bills. I know everything will be okay it us just a little scary to think about sometimes. I can hold off my electric bill but my car insurance has to get paid no matter what. I am going to call Suntrust to figure something out with my car payment see if I can get an extension.
Hopefully I get a job soon. I do have an interview on Monday for CVS. it's not great and it will probably be minimum wage but at least it is a job. I will have money coming in. I hope my schedule is good too if I get it because the store that I applied for is kind of out of the way from everything else so hopefully I wont be making the drive to just spend my paycheck on gas.
If anything I know I can get a seasonal job coming up which will only be like 4 to 10 hours a week and it will only be for a few months. Arg, this sucks. I hate not having a job partly because I hate not having something to do all day. I need to get my but in gear though. There are a lot of things I could be doing like cleaning my apartment instead of sitting on my ass at my boyfriends all day and doing nothing there while he plays WOW. I f*cking hate WOW. So tomorrow it begins, The Transformation. Starting tomorrow I am done smoking, I am going to get my apartment cleaned and go through everything I have and get rid of all that is not necessary, i'm going to start working out (I've gained 5lbs since not having a job), I'm going to get over my pride bull crap and look for a job closer to home and actually finish that application. I really need to get myself together.
So thus the plan begins. Time to set my goals for the week of Sept 26, 2010.
Sunday: Breakfast with Grandma and family at 9.
Clean out kitchen (cabnets/fridge)
Clean out bedroom (closet/dresser/draws full of crap)
Workout for 1hour.
DO NOT HAVE A CIGARETTE
Do my eyebrows (they are looking ruff)
Monday: Job Interview at 9am at CVS
Lay by the pool, (the new me is tan)
Workout for 1 hour.
Drop off box of books at Library.
DO NOT HAVE A CIAGRETTE
Tuesday: Workout for 1 hour in the morning.
Take bags of clothes to Loes for the Goodwill truck.
Get rid of every last piece of cardboard in my apartment. (really Ive been since there February I should have all that shit already.
Go around to restaurants around home to look for a job. (Finish applications)
DO NOT HAVE A CIGARETTE
Wednesday: Workout for 1hour
Layout in the sun.
Clean out hall closet.
Clean patio closet.
DO NOT SMOKE A CIGARETTE
Thursday: Workout for 1hour.
Return Applications to all Restaurants.
Re arrange room.
Clean bathroom.
Friday: Workout for 1hour.
Layout in the sun.
Clean out car/vacuum/wash
DO NOT HAVE A CIGARETTE
Saturday: Workout for 1 hour
Come up with to do list for the week of August 3rd, 2010 since my acct will officially be overdrawn.
DO NOT HAVE A CIGARETTE!
Amburet
P.S. After asking myself out loud what song best goes with this blog entry and hitting random on Itunes; the song of the moment is We Will Rock You~Queen
PPS I realize that the last post says pretty much the same thing as this one but I am in a better state of mind. I am not longer feeling sorry for myself now I am just pissed that I have waisted so much time.
Hopefully I get a job soon. I do have an interview on Monday for CVS. it's not great and it will probably be minimum wage but at least it is a job. I will have money coming in. I hope my schedule is good too if I get it because the store that I applied for is kind of out of the way from everything else so hopefully I wont be making the drive to just spend my paycheck on gas.
If anything I know I can get a seasonal job coming up which will only be like 4 to 10 hours a week and it will only be for a few months. Arg, this sucks. I hate not having a job partly because I hate not having something to do all day. I need to get my but in gear though. There are a lot of things I could be doing like cleaning my apartment instead of sitting on my ass at my boyfriends all day and doing nothing there while he plays WOW. I f*cking hate WOW. So tomorrow it begins, The Transformation. Starting tomorrow I am done smoking, I am going to get my apartment cleaned and go through everything I have and get rid of all that is not necessary, i'm going to start working out (I've gained 5lbs since not having a job), I'm going to get over my pride bull crap and look for a job closer to home and actually finish that application. I really need to get myself together.
So thus the plan begins. Time to set my goals for the week of Sept 26, 2010.
Sunday: Breakfast with Grandma and family at 9.
Clean out kitchen (cabnets/fridge)
Clean out bedroom (closet/dresser/draws full of crap)
Workout for 1hour.
DO NOT HAVE A CIGARETTE
Do my eyebrows (they are looking ruff)
Monday: Job Interview at 9am at CVS
Lay by the pool, (the new me is tan)
Workout for 1 hour.
Drop off box of books at Library.
DO NOT HAVE A CIAGRETTE
Tuesday: Workout for 1 hour in the morning.
Take bags of clothes to Loes for the Goodwill truck.
Get rid of every last piece of cardboard in my apartment. (really Ive been since there February I should have all that shit already.
Go around to restaurants around home to look for a job. (Finish applications)
DO NOT HAVE A CIGARETTE
Wednesday: Workout for 1hour
Layout in the sun.
Clean out hall closet.
Clean patio closet.
DO NOT SMOKE A CIGARETTE
Thursday: Workout for 1hour.
Return Applications to all Restaurants.
Re arrange room.
Clean bathroom.
Friday: Workout for 1hour.
Layout in the sun.
Clean out car/vacuum/wash
DO NOT HAVE A CIGARETTE
Saturday: Workout for 1 hour
Come up with to do list for the week of August 3rd, 2010 since my acct will officially be overdrawn.
DO NOT HAVE A CIGARETTE!
Amburet
P.S. After asking myself out loud what song best goes with this blog entry and hitting random on Itunes; the song of the moment is We Will Rock You~Queen
PPS I realize that the last post says pretty much the same thing as this one but I am in a better state of mind. I am not longer feeling sorry for myself now I am just pissed that I have waisted so much time.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Here it is. This weeks schedule.
Wow, two post in one day, in less than ten minutes. I must be bored. Okay so here on out pitty party is over, no more feeling sorry for myself. There are people out there who have it worse off than so I need to get off my lazy ass and do something about it.
Today I go to Target with the Babe and I will apply for a job there. It's not a great a job but it is a job and I need one.
Later I will go online and update my application for HCC (Hillsborough Community College) What I want to do with my life I have no idea but what better way to find out then go back to school.
Tomorrow I recover from tonight while cleaning my apartment and getting that pig sty livable and happy feeling. A happy/clean home makes for a happy Amber. Plus I also have to give the cats their flee baths.
Saturday online applications for jobs and Sunday recover from Saturday night and Chantel's birthday party!
Starting Monday, the job hunt for any job will begin. The malls the stores and the shops.
Tuesday head down to HCC to speak with an advisor about changing my major to a regular AA degree.
Wednesday I'm going to the beach. I live in Florida tourist season almost over its time to head out and get some sun.
These are my plans for next week and next Thursday we make new plans for the week. I'm a women on a mission and I am going to accomplish everything I want. Yes ma'am. Let's get this party started.
Today I go to Target with the Babe and I will apply for a job there. It's not a great a job but it is a job and I need one.
Later I will go online and update my application for HCC (Hillsborough Community College) What I want to do with my life I have no idea but what better way to find out then go back to school.
Tomorrow I recover from tonight while cleaning my apartment and getting that pig sty livable and happy feeling. A happy/clean home makes for a happy Amber. Plus I also have to give the cats their flee baths.
Saturday online applications for jobs and Sunday recover from Saturday night and Chantel's birthday party!
Starting Monday, the job hunt for any job will begin. The malls the stores and the shops.
Tuesday head down to HCC to speak with an advisor about changing my major to a regular AA degree.
Wednesday I'm going to the beach. I live in Florida tourist season almost over its time to head out and get some sun.
These are my plans for next week and next Thursday we make new plans for the week. I'm a women on a mission and I am going to accomplish everything I want. Yes ma'am. Let's get this party started.
Spout of sleepy.
Still not job hunting, I guess I need to get on that if I want to find a job. No one is just going to give me one. I need to find something I want to do though and I have no idea what I want to do. I would like to work in a company and a job that I could be happy with so hopefully I can find that soon. Of course once again I have no collage education witch could impact me getting a job that I could be successful in. Wow, I am trying not to be negative but it just comes out sometimes. Well tonight I am going dancing and Saturday is USF vs UF then Saturday night we celebrate the 21st anniversary of the birth of my dear friend Chantel Martin.
Lucky hunting to all my fellow unemployed peeps.
~Amber
Lucky hunting to all my fellow unemployed peeps.
~Amber
Monday, September 6, 2010
Friends?
How do I go about getting followers and following people? I would like more people to talk to and have read my blog. Not like I have anything to say but still. I would like people to read what I have to write/say.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Pitty Party
Okay so I have officially been out of the job for four days. It really sucks, I don't know what I am going to do. I have no money coming in and I have no idea what I am going to do. I gave my brother 140.00 towards the rent when all he needed was 125.00. I asked him for the 15.00 back and he said he didn't know how much was in his acct. I am never going to see that 15.00 again. I still have one more half a paycheck coming in and I still have to file for unemployment see if I can get anything until I can find a new job.
I have been looking online at different jobs for different companies. Of course I have no collage education and the only experience I have is five years at McDonalds and 2 and half months at Suncoast. I don't want to work in a call center again. I don't like being yelled at especially for things that are not my fault. You messed up your acct you are the only person you should be mad at. It's not my fault you don't know how to read a statement. IF YOU HAVE THE INFORMATION ON THE STATEMENT IN FRONT OF YOU WHY ARE YOU HAVEING ME LOOK UP THE STATEMENT TO TELL YOU THE TOTAL WHEN YOU JUST TOLD IT TO ME!. <<< that guy was an asshole.
Arg, I'm freaking the hell out right now and I feel like I am losing control over my life. I know my family will help me but I don't want their help. I feel like I should be able to do it on my own. I want to find a job anywhere just so I have a paycheck coming in and I can say that I am at least trying to pay my bills on my own. roughly speaking I would need to make 1000.00 a month to get the little bills I do need to get paid, paid and be able to eat and put money in savings. I don't know what I am going to do. I want to go back to school but I have no idea what I want to study or what classes I want to take. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up.
Thats funny because I was talking about how at twenty-two I feel that I should not have to rely on people to help me with bills but I don't feel like I am grown up yet. I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I really want to move out of Tampa, but my entire family is here. Scotty is here and I don't think he would want to move. Oh goodness. This can't be good. It's my turn for the pitty party. Don't get me wrong I understand that I am more fortunate than others but still I am entitled to a pitty party every once in a while. I am aloud to feel sorry for myself for a few days while I work stuff out in my head. God I have one more half a paycheck coming in from my last job and that will be a few hundred which will all go towards bills for September and October. Not even fully October. Oh my god what if I can't find anything. I mean I know I will but what if I can't I would have a complete melt down and not know what to do, I don't know what to do now. I would have to move in with my family and sell my car. Good lord I hate them for firing me. Bitches!
Okay, well I need to finish this pitty party doing something other than writing, like packing and getting ready to leave.
Yours Truly
Amburnet
The self pittying, out of work, thrower of objects.
I have been looking online at different jobs for different companies. Of course I have no collage education and the only experience I have is five years at McDonalds and 2 and half months at Suncoast. I don't want to work in a call center again. I don't like being yelled at especially for things that are not my fault. You messed up your acct you are the only person you should be mad at. It's not my fault you don't know how to read a statement. IF YOU HAVE THE INFORMATION ON THE STATEMENT IN FRONT OF YOU WHY ARE YOU HAVEING ME LOOK UP THE STATEMENT TO TELL YOU THE TOTAL WHEN YOU JUST TOLD IT TO ME!. <<< that guy was an asshole.
Arg, I'm freaking the hell out right now and I feel like I am losing control over my life. I know my family will help me but I don't want their help. I feel like I should be able to do it on my own. I want to find a job anywhere just so I have a paycheck coming in and I can say that I am at least trying to pay my bills on my own. roughly speaking I would need to make 1000.00 a month to get the little bills I do need to get paid, paid and be able to eat and put money in savings. I don't know what I am going to do. I want to go back to school but I have no idea what I want to study or what classes I want to take. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up.
Thats funny because I was talking about how at twenty-two I feel that I should not have to rely on people to help me with bills but I don't feel like I am grown up yet. I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I really want to move out of Tampa, but my entire family is here. Scotty is here and I don't think he would want to move. Oh goodness. This can't be good. It's my turn for the pitty party. Don't get me wrong I understand that I am more fortunate than others but still I am entitled to a pitty party every once in a while. I am aloud to feel sorry for myself for a few days while I work stuff out in my head. God I have one more half a paycheck coming in from my last job and that will be a few hundred which will all go towards bills for September and October. Not even fully October. Oh my god what if I can't find anything. I mean I know I will but what if I can't I would have a complete melt down and not know what to do, I don't know what to do now. I would have to move in with my family and sell my car. Good lord I hate them for firing me. Bitches!
Okay, well I need to finish this pitty party doing something other than writing, like packing and getting ready to leave.
Yours Truly
Amburnet
The self pittying, out of work, thrower of objects.
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